My Unseen Motherhood
Sometimes I feel cheated.
I was sick every day from week six until Conrad was born.
I tried my best to do everything I needed to do to ensure I had a healthy baby, but I lost him anyway.
I am a mother, but I do'nt feel like I can totally claim that title - at least not publicly. When people around me talk about their motherhood I feel like I can't chime in. Even though I experienced labor and delivery and holding my child its as if my motherhood can't be talked about because my child didn't live.
So often I want to say something but I stay quite, worried how someone will react. This is my new normal and I carry my unseen motherhood everyday.
I was sick every day from week six until Conrad was born.
I tried my best to do everything I needed to do to ensure I had a healthy baby, but I lost him anyway.
I am a mother, but I do'nt feel like I can totally claim that title - at least not publicly. When people around me talk about their motherhood I feel like I can't chime in. Even though I experienced labor and delivery and holding my child its as if my motherhood can't be talked about because my child didn't live.
So often I want to say something but I stay quite, worried how someone will react. This is my new normal and I carry my unseen motherhood everyday.
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